Just Beautifully Me

I want this all to stop.

This up and down all night long.

Praying that my body will just

give in and just let me sleep.

I toss and turn, readjust and

nothing seems to work.

I sit up then I lay down.

I rock and rock hoping just

hoping that sleep will give in.

I watch the clock. It

seems like these nghts

last forever.

And yet the time just

ticks away mocking me.

What I wouldn’t give to just

be able to fall asleep without

having to take pill after 

pill.

When none of that seems

to work I am almost in tears

so i turn the water in

the tub on as hot as I can

bare.

It relaxes me for the 

short bit of time. My 

body relaxes and I have

peace.

I place my head on the

edge of the tub, turn on

my side and let the water

envelope me.

For just those few minutes

my eyes close and I find

peace.

These sleepless, pain filled

nights are killing me.

Eiliyah Ann Ali

2-16-14